Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Find My Paradise

It is a lonely path I tread
With a couple of hopes
And dreams in my head

A lonely road
A lonely way
A lonely wind blowing my life into disarray

Is it unfair then, if I
Ak for some help
Or a piece of advice?
I’m just here to find my paradise

My paradise is a world
Where I’m not alone
With a few people I can call friends
And a place I can call home

‘tis a simple thing
The paradise that I seek
But coming across simple things is hard
Because they mean so much more to me

Along then, I’ll go
It is a long road ahead
And I still have
A couple of hopes and dreams
I won’t complain though
I’ll take life as it comes
With a pinch of salt and loads of spice
Who knows, maybe someday
I’ll find my paradise
I’ll find my paradise....

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I am terrified of myself

It's getting dark
Night is setting in
The same old house that was
Cheery in the morn
is now getting gloomy and dim

I can hear the soft
whispers of the breeze
I can hear my own breath
Footsteps resounding and echoing
in this house of death

Every soft movement
feels like my last
every shadow; a murderer
every creak; my end
every passing moment, doubling the pace of my heart

Terrified to move
Afraid of staying alone
I look around slowly
This is the place I call home

I close my eyes
and remind myself
that my worst enemy
is my mind

I open them
and look into the mirror
a shadowy and pale reflection
of one that was caring and kind

This is my imagination
I say out loud
in a voice, not quite my own
I say it again, and again
but to no avail, nothing eased my pain

The pain of knowing
that I was being punished
Punished for my sin
A horrible sin, at that,
The sin of murdering my own kin

They are back to reclaim me
To take me to hell

I brought this upon myself

You brought this upon yourself
You brought this upon yourself.....